Did you hear that? No? Oh, Just me. Yeah, I'm ok. No, it's gone now.
This is a conversation I have with my boyfriend at least four times a day. Every time I hope he'll say he heard it too.
There are constantly people talking to me. At least there use to be before I was on my meds. All the time voices would whisper things. Hiss insults or tell me things to do that wouldn't be good for me. Its a weird thing to look at these voices and realize that they're just trying to help. I try not to talk about the voices because the more I talk about them the louder they get, but this is a part of me. And it's one that I don't want to have to hide.
I hear whispers sometimes. Sometimes it's full sentences or thoughts. Sometimes it's someone yelling at me so loudly that I have to cover my ears and hum just to block it out. It's loud in my head. Always loud. The voices drone on in the background. They make it hard to focus on anything and sometimes I'll just sit for hours listening to them without moving. It's one thing to explain what it's like and another to hear it. If you would, take the time to listen to this video with headphones on. It explains better than I can with words
Yeah, its really like that. Listen to this audio while trying to do something and you'll see what everyday life is like for schizophrenics. And maybe you'll start to understand that while some of the things we do may seem off the wall or crazy to you actually make perfect sense to us.
Dark Dreams Kiddies
Kasper Addams
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