Blogging

How lame have I become? Sinking to the point where like every twenty-something out there I have decided to post a blog. Everyone seems to have a blog nowadays as a way to vent their frustrations to a public that really doesn't care. Cynical comments aside, blogging is where I feel I need to be. My life is simply too,,,Unusual to not share. So here I come, humbled and defeated, to start a blog about my life and the strangeness of it all.
Where does blogging come from anyway? What was the first blog? These are the questions that plague my mind as I remain in some form of purgatory while literally watching paint dry. My significant other and I have taken on the ridiculous task of redecorating our bedroom. Walls, flooring, and all. A task that we have allotted our weekend to. I picked the bedroom colors of course and soon our walls will be bright teal and black. The bright color is a new thing for me. Typically I gravitate towards dark shades of any color and avoid any sort of brightness, but the contrast of black and teal is one that I find visually stimulating.
Ok. Enough with the relatively boring day to day run down of my life. I started this blog because like so many other people in the world, I wanted to get my thoughts and feelings out into the open and begin showing the world what lies beneath my layers of gloom and doom. Also, to help me deal with the fact that I was recently diagnosed schizophrenic and I want to show the world that while I may be declared mentally insane, I am still a person. I am more than my illness, And that schizophrenia doesn't stop me from living a relatively normal life. There are bad days, which to me are of normal badness while other people who are mentally well would find them horrific. And there are good days when the sun shines and light doesn't seem to hurt my eyes so much. When my inner darkness can lift and life seems full of the impossible.
Mostly I wanted to start this blog so that I would feel less alone. And feel like maybe, just maybe, this blog will get out into the world and other people like me will feel less alone too. I selfishly have always wanted to start a blog that would inspire the world, it's even on my bucket list, but if I can reach one person... Well, that's enough world for me :)

Dark dreams Kiddies,
Kasper Addams